I use this blog to record memories and eventful times of my family. If someone where to only read what I have wrote and not see or talk to me on a consistent basis they would assume all is well and I have no daily struggles. Who wants to record the days you don't feel like getting out of bed, don't want to talk to other people, about a disagreement you had with another that led to hurt feelings, family disputes and crying . . . lots and lots of crying. This video was sent to me today and what a message it reminded me of. We ALL at one time or another have to face trials. For me some are easy to overcome and I can move on. Others take more time and when it seems I will never be the same I hit the ground in prayer and share my struggles with others and eventually I am.

I spent an hour and a half at the doctor's office this morning. I read a million books to the boys trying to pass the time as quickly as possible. The third book Cooper picked was a Veggie Tale adventure about choosing and staying on the right path. One sentence caught my attention when the character of the book said something about it not about if you make a wrong choice, it is that you realize your mistake(s) and start again with what God has called you to do. Stop focusing on your wrong choices, but decide to correct and move on.

In 32 years I have made many, many, MANY wrong decisions. Some were easy to correct and continue on my journey. Others where harder for me to accept and I had feelings of inadequacies of ever being a worthy Christian again. As the girl in the video struggles to find Jesus and reaches out for Him there where a million other people pulling her to stay in her sin. That she was unworthy and would no longer be within God's grace. I have felt that pulling . . . that insecurity and guilt that I would never be whole again. How could God forgive me?

He did and He will. As I to fall to my knees and pray, He will be there and knock my enemy down! What a powerful lesson learned (again) for my Wednesday morning!